I got my Life Energy Back
I have been able to regain some stability in my life again, so I am not afraid of death all the time, and I can even eat some fruit, but I still have to control my diet.
I think it is so simple, just vegetables in a capsule, all organic and pure. It is sometimes a little boring, but I would rather have my life and my health. I am still curious about this crazy existance we have and I want to experience the future.
I also take Morpheus to fall asleep. It is a really nice calm I get and when I wake up I cannot remember how I fell asleep. I am more cheerful now about the whole thing, and maybe Morpheus is a part of that.